“Mom, I do not want to postpone my courses at the university. I want to
graduate on time.” I sobbed uncontrollably from a side of a phone call.
The worst thing happened lately. I said once to my brother who was
doing his master study in the Netherlands at that time, “Is this a sign for me,
brother? I desperately feel like in the edge of my life… I still want to live
my life as well.”